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Only a few know that I have a pretty bad temper but I pretty much have it in check these days.

Puberty at 15 brought along good things like growth in height amongst growth in other areas but temper came along with all the hormonal changes. It was not apparent at that point in time to me that it was the hormones working my brain and I was angry at the world and I assumed the people in it are all bloody assholes trying to pull a fast one on me.

I got into quarrels over soccer games, pissed schoolmates off on purpose, and did things my mother wouldn’t be proud of.

I am pretty meek these days but I do find that my temper is not gone but bottled up instead. I fully understand the trouble I can get into if I let my temper take over but my patience for some people can only go so far.

So I will do my part by keeping the temper in a bottle. Just don’t rub me the wrong way repeatedly or I’ll just let the temper out to rape your ass.

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I failed my IPPT last December which explains why I was attending RT for the last 4 weeks. I couldn’t pass last year as I was pretty much slacking in my cardiovascular exercises and I failed my 2.4km run by 18 seconds. Doesn’t sound much but I ran my lungs out and almost fainted on the treadmill.

After 4 weeks of really pushing it during RT – especially during runs – I went for the IPPT test yesterday with much confidence.
True enough, I improved my run by almost a good 30 seconds and had probably some energy left in me at the end of the run.

Hurray?

NO!

I FAILED MY CHIN-UPS BY ONE! ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

I needed to do at least 5 and I struggled at the 5th and my chin was probably 5cm from the bar. The 2nd attempt was even worse.

Somebody just chin me to death already. I am very disappointed in myself. I concentrated too much on my 2.4km run that I totally neglected my upper body strength training. KuKuNehNeh even suggested that I might have gained weight since last December and hence the decline in chin-up counts. :p

Anyway, bad news for failing the IPPT. I have to continue into the next RT phase and this means I have to attend RT for 3 days per week for the next 4 weeks.

WHAT THE CHIN?? ARRRGHHH!!!

This happened quite some time ago and I was reminded again of it when a group of friends were talking about the weird encounters with people.

A couple of months ago, Me and KKNN boarded the train at City Hall and stood pretty cramped near the train doors like any other day in the grossly overcrowded trains in Singapore during peak hours. We started to hear this guy speaking in mandarin about 2 – 3 feet away saying,

“Go away! Go away! All of you!” (in Mandarin)

He was pretty audible in the cabin and initial assessment was that he is speaking through a hands free set on the mobile but he was obviously a mentally unstable person as he repeated the line above a few times while swinging pretty roughly on the vertical pole in front of him.

“Go away! Go away! All of you!” (in Mandarin)

Odds are getting low that he is even talking to ghosts or the likes and I gently shuffled my feet and pushed KKNN to the side so that I get in between Mr. GoAway and KKNN. This position probably favoured KKNN in ways more than her safety as she can now unabashedly stare at Mr. GoAway just by looking straight over my shoulders.

There was this couple locked in tight embrace on the opposite door where we were at and Mr. GoAway started saying,

“Go back home lar! Go back home to fuck! Stand here and hug for what? Go home and insert it in!” (in Mandarin)

Despite all logical reasons to keep a straight face at this point in time, I couldn’t help but give a contorted face of controlled laughter like one would get if you stood in front of your CEO who had his zipper hang open.

After making loud comments about other passengers in the train including things like “Si Ang Mor!” (Stupid Caucasian), he turned to look at me and exclaimed loudly,

“Lecherous spectacles!” (in Mandarin)

I was wearing this pair of specs that day you see…

Triple X

Half expecting him to step over and saw my head off like the accident last year, Mr. GoAway decided to take another look at me and said,

“Go Bioskin lar! So many scars on your face.” (in Mandarin)

Note that at this point in time, the cabin’s ambient volume is quite low as most people were intently watching/listening Mr. GoAway’s every move. He then uttered the next line…

“But my skin is worse than yours.” (in Mandarin)

Despite Mr. Go Away’s criticism towards my imperfections, he seemed to be quite aware of his as well. Wahahahahahahaa!!!

He left a few stations before our stop and I couldn’t help but wonder at what goes through his mind as he was in that train. On further thought, I realized that it’s not about his difference in thinking from the normal person but it was more the fact that he lost his ability to filter his thoughts and whatever he thinks about; he just says it out without holding back.

If all my thoughts are not filtered, I would probably sound super crazy on the trains.

Before the recording of the GennY podcast last night, I had short discussions with Brian Koh and Daryl Tay on social media amongst other things like wondering why am I part of Generation Y when I am born in 1981. Wikipedia says so okay!

My question to them was, “Are we representative of the Generation Ys in the world or even Singapore?”

I realize that I am quite the odd one out amongst my peers in the way I engage in social media for example. My peers are now discovering micro blogging/status updates through Facebook while I am already using Plurk and Twitter for almost a year. Friends are turning to blogs for reading while I am already juggling hundreds of RSS feeds in my Google Reader. The examples are endless but my point is that people like Brian, Daryl and myself are actually a minority amongst the Gen Ys even when comparing the younger end of the Gen Y spectrum.

Brian pointed out that we are probably the front runners in this aspect but I am still not seeing the curve in the graph where I should find most of my peers start joining me in my exhibitionist ways in social media.

So am I a front runner or am I running in the wrong direction?